Namaste.

apologised for not updating for a VERY long time.I was super busy with training.In camp for 2 months.stressnye beta.everyweek was assessement week at PA.

And after for so long,this year was the year where i fast alone without family members by my side.and not forgetting,Eid as well.so sad,yeah i know.

Anyway,i actually have forgotten how to write a post.so i apologised once again yaar.For all who celebrates Deepa,I wish you a very blessed Dewali to you guys..

God bless all,ameen.

Namaste.

Fasting In The Month Of Ramadhan

In The Name of Allah, Most Gracious, Most Merciful

Namaste.

I am getting ready for Ashraf Nashir baby shower celebration today at Hougang.Albeit the Tekka visit,(which i bought 3 punjabi suits,yg murah2 sahaje)yet today i decided to not wear them.Its like “baju pinjam”.Its way to big for me cause ive not got the chance to do the alteration.Eventhough(the medical checkup yesterday said ive increased weight from 42.4 to 44.7,now)how sexcited that can be yaar,and ouh,ouh,ouh..ive grow taller too,from 156cm to 158cm.must be the effect of (chocolate dates ive for breakfast everday)So final result,i need to wear the punjabi suit by Kashra.(the one during the weeding ceremony last year).but with a short hair this year.super short i tell you.grr..

Next,It’s officially confirmed that i start my APO training this thursday.Which is so quite unlucky because i cant sahur or even breakfast with my family for the beginning of Ramadhan,..and the rest of it too.(except for weekends,and i hope im not that shag)and to make things a bit so tak penting,the whole batch for this thurs,only consist of super few  ladies.baik pe gang.?!! .sungguh bestkan the bounding that we both gonna share.??

ok, ive got to go now,cause the marhaban starts at 12.30pm.ok.

Charlos

Namaste.

I am very protective of my loved ones and I hate it if they are being treated unfairly by others,
especially because of infantile reasons which are too embarassing for me to mention.
And I thought we are supposed to grow wiser as we age?
As the Malay saying goes, Siapa makan cili akan terasa pedasnya.
You know who you are.

“Air yang dicincang takkan putus”.But guess,
this air is so putus already and cant be fixed.
You bad mouth about us,you say what is not supposed to be said.
You jolly bring the non-fiction into fiction world.
What is this guys?

C’mon please.Grow up.Time umur-umur macam you la,
sepatutnya banyakkan berzikir dan meng’insafi kealfa’an diri,
Ini tak,ikut sedap mulut you je menghembuskan kata-kata fitnah.
Nama saja ustazah madrasah,perangai,ya tuhan,mintak ampun.

Orang yang benar benar tahu keadaan sebenar pun,
boleh termakan hasutan you.to that,i salute you.
But sampai bila you nak hasut seorang demi seorang
untuk join your community kan??
Lucky some of them have super cool brain to think
what is wrong and right to not join your community.
heh.The thing is that now,
orang orang yang senang sangat termakan hasutan you
are the people yang you “sogok” dengan mata wang saja.
Ala,tu pun you buat because you nak ada supporter.
Ni game,i da pernah rasa.
thanks.

Tapi you kena ingat,God is sungguh fair towards his mankind.
Sabar separuh dari iman,Orang yang tahu dia salah,akan rasa guilty,
or dalam bahasa pasar,”kanchong” to make every pieces looks perfect.
Whereas,orang yang jujur dan sabar,akan rasa tenang dalam mengharungi
segala cubaan dunia..Biarlah apa orang nak kata or menabur fitnah
segunung sekalipun.
Most important thing,Tuhan tahu.and we believe that Allah s.w.t
akan tunjukkan kebenaran yang sebenar.
Just wait for the time sahaja.

Its ok.satu hari nanti,kebenaran akan menyerlah.
And bila saat kebenaran itu tiba,baru you sedar,
yang you ni dasar hyprocrite,manusia bertopengkan syaitan.

opps,maaf.its my say.
If i really follow my temper,da lama i serang you,
but,tak sopan la kan.
Almost everytime,i bising kat mama i sebab she’s too penyabar already.
Sabar ada limit la.

To this,my sense of respecting you is nowhere to be found.
im sorry,i just cant help it yaar.
Eventhough my mama tak pernah mengajar
i untuk bersikap kurangajar terhadap older people,
but hey,enough is enough.
You treat us like shit.
I cant bear any single cent more to see my mama suffered
because of your words and action.
We had enough of your bullshit.

I SUNGGUH HATE YOU.
WE HAVE OUR OWN PRIDE YAAR,
YOU BETTER GET A LIFE LA MAKCIK.

Namaste.

I went to Central Clark Quay yesterday with the fam before heading to Woodlands to collect birthday boy Man United cake together with the cupcakes as well.At first,i was a lil bit furious cause birthday boy actually wants the Jersey no 7 cupcake.(you know la heh,) but theres no jersey no 7.Not that i realised that Ronaldo was no longer in Man United.How pathetic kan aku…hahahaha.It was a surprised theme cake for birthday boy thou.Cause we told him that the ladies cant make it,due to the short time period noticed.So he jolly feels upset about it.he he opt for the “nutella cake” from polar puff.lol.

Thanks alot to “Cupcake-momma”.I know it was so very last min to order via net,but ladies,you make it happen!!yeay.

Namaste.

i need a short haircut before training starts.chet!i so wanna keep my hair long so that i can make it CURLIER when raya.but,i just cant.its the rules you see.so nak or tak nak, i decided to browse through the net to find one haircut style.short yet modernised.boleh gitu?teehee.this is my hairstyle last year.

so this time round i opt for the shorter version,more bob and concave.like this…

Easier kan..?so i dont need to use lots of shampoo and conditioner.furthermore,confirm does not take a long time to maintain the style during camp days.so this style will be perfect.

ok,charlos.

Orita Sinclair,School of art and new media called me just a few moments back.This is the 4th time.There is also dozens of mails from different department sending mails.Despite all this,i still cant attend and continue studying and take my ADV DIP with them yet.at the moment.Money is not on my side right now.with the family too.Infact i’ve been thinking about it so often till at one point,i just burst into tears.I wish that money will not always be an issue for me to continue my studies.Yet it happened.One of the course coordinator whom spoke to me via the phone was very nice yet i cant helped it out yet yaar.

Despite all this,I know that one fine day with God’s will i will come back to ORITA and continue with my studies.I will wait for this moment patiently.

And now that this is becoming an issue(Thou its only for awhile) i began to actually hate ayah.Cant help it.If  he had been responsible from the beginning,to give me duit nafkah and so on  from since the divorced,this matter wont occured.Ok.forget it.(I hereby declared that this is only a statement from a sad daughter) I dont give a damn shit about it cause i dont care.More so like it,since when ayah have the thought of me as his daughter yaar.?? :(

Albeit that all this things happened,Praised to god cause i still have my so wonderful mama.and i must mention this,my Daddy.Mr aman.That makes every inch of effort to keep the family well.

And i must realised that,at least i have a proper education although its not as the same pace as my other friends.Cause there is other poor fellows who does not even have a basic primary education throughout their life.Down the road.

There’s something i want to share with you readers,

“Ya tuhan,tiada kemudahan dalam sesuatu perkara kecuali jika engkau menjadikannya mudah dan jika engkau kehendaki.Engkau akan memudahkan perkara yang susah.Aku bertawakal padamu ya tuhan.”

“God blessed us and may he gives us his guidance to sail the journey of life”.

AMEEN.

Part 1

I wanted to share with you ladies out there about my point of view towards some ruscal out there.Albeit,this is just from my point of view,its up to that individual to decide what is wrong or what is right.ok,lets start.

“Ladies,

If you arent being treated right by a guy,dont wait for him to change.It is ok if say,the guy have show remorsed and showed that his changing,for the better.i know,it takes time for people to change.If the chances that we gave to them are utterly being neglected,then ditch his sorry disgrace. You know guys will always say “sorry dear,i promise will never to it again” kinda thing.But for how many times yarr..??”

“Ladies,

find someone who treat you with utter respect. Someone who will honour your morals.(if you know what i mean). Someone who will make you smile when you’re at your lowest. Someone who will care for you when you make mistakes,Not join with you together to make the mistakes yarr.Someone who will love you no matter how ugly you are when you’re in no mood. Someone who are willing to share bad and good times together,not that will only be nice to you when you’re loaded kinda thing.”

Okamdone.

Part 2

I actually happen and began to believe in my idea and in myself after his presence.Yes,people do make mistakes.ALOT.Now that i know it was safe to make and take risk,most important is to ask for what i want. yea,sounds so selfish.so what.? Nowadays,people are so rude.agree?

Our love story is pretty simple actually,the toughest part is to declare public.as in yea.For those who dont know,guess you know why you dont know.hahahahah.

Its hard sometimes to be in a relationship with an artist.
haha,ok did i just said that im in love.WITH AN ARTIST??

ouh yea babe,i just did.

I saw tears in your eyes the other day
And I tried to look away
I was totally and completely at a loss
Of what I wanted to say
I didn’t want to say the wrong thing
And add more pain, sorrow or grief
As I struggled to find the right words
That would bring you some relief
So I fell down on my knees in prayer
And repeatedly mentioned your name
Asking God to wipe away your tears
And take away your pain
My dearest, I didnt expect an answer
Cause we already knew.
So hold on, God will see you through
Trust that God will restore your joy
And know that I’m praying for you….

Despite all that have had happened the past 2 years,

I was,I did,I still am into it.Just like you.

So don’t try to change me
Why would you change me?
Baby, I will let you go

You know why, I had my, my vices
You said you could handle it
But you lied ’cause you tried
To change me, move me, and no

Everything you loved before you don’t love no more
Everything I did for you, you don’t want no more
Maybe I’m not the fallin’ love you’ve been lookin’ for
Would you agree? So how can you not see it?

Why must I decide on
Whether I love you or the world?
You met me, you fell deeply in love
With me so what is the problem now?

Why would you wanna change me, arrange me
Is that what you call love?
Maybe you need somebody different
Somebody who fits you like a glove
But don’t change everything that you love
About me when you know that I love you

Have you ever had one of those weeks when nothing seems to make sense and everybody’s acting weird.I didnt deserve to be in the middle of some weird games.This is so upsetting.

I didnt want to meet anyone,I didnt even want to talk.I just wanted to sit on a beach and stare at the waves.